I think there is another source for the desire to transition that is powerful and not stemming from the sex drive, and that it is this source that really causes "dysphoria" in these people.
when were young boys, we were accustomed to being liked and doted on by women, being called cute, etc. it's a nice feeling, to feel that no one thinks you threatening, to feel gentle and kind and "pure". there are many liberties a man must give up as he goes through the change to manhood. he must relearn how to interact with people again, he has to learn to take into account his effect on others, how he must not act in any way that is "weird", else he risks creeping people out and experiencing social consequences. i think this change of roles is almost traumatic for many men. i think it creates a psychological wound that gets re-opened if the man ever considers transitioning. beyond sexual motivations, he wants that feeling of harmlessness, of being liked, of social liberty like he felt when he was a young boy.
when he thinks he is female, he begins to try and un-repress himself, psychologically embracing and surrendering to his unconscious anima; his unacceptable, "feminine" traits and desires that he had to shut away. it seems to him as if he can opt-out of what he didn't want from his masculinity, and opt-in to the roles and relationship structures he once was able to occupy as a child.
i think that's what creates the narcissism you ladies talk about so often. their own self is their only justification, so even if they weren't temperamentally all that narcissistic before, the burden of sustaining this identity will make them one. like a true narcissist, who cannot accept to see himself in any negative light, or else his illusion is destroyed and he is forced to face his many years of wrongdoing and delusional attitudes. the AGP-trans-identity has this same weakness, if the identity isn't true, then logically the only other explanation is that you're just a gross, perverted, confused, and manipulated cult member. on top of that you no longer have a mandate to indulge your emotional "needs" of occupying the child-like social role you desire for yourself. they live every day whether they admit or not, mentally existing on that knife's edge. that amount of strain on the ego is difficult for most people to deal with i think.
In a more gender-neutral world like the one GC's would like, there would be less shaming of men's feminine traits, and less stringent rules on how men and women may live among one another generally. perhaps in an environment like that, there wouldn't be such an energy source in the minds of these men for the siren's call of transgenderism to draw its strength from.
i think all transgender-identified people, whether originally boys or girls, whether AGP, HSTS, or any other kind, can relate to that. that feeling of yearning to be free, to express yourself completely authentically. to not be encumbered by the boundaries by which we are all forced to conform to.
when this source of yearning is mixed with the frustrated sexual yearnings of the AGP, it creates an extremely potent psychological mirage. not only can he finally understand why he's so odd, he sees a path to transform from an unlovable weirdo, with a disgusting un-satisfiable and self-destructive habit, to someone who could live out their fantasy while being celebrated and loved.
i think maybe these times will be seen as an example of human hubris and naivete, the very next generation after two thousand years of Abrahamic tyranny goes a little to far in the other direction....
sigh... all we had to do was teach kids how fetishes work and what porn does to you.
maybe if i hadn't feared so terribly that i might grow up to be gay i would have dealt with it better..
god, i feel like such a cringelord for being this way....
for a time i wondered if AGP traits were another expression of whatever underlies masochism in men. that to some degree, it was natural to crossdress if you're masochistic, that they are related in that both could plausibly be explained as partially left-over feminine traits in the brain from utero. but now i just think that agp is caused by being masochistic and having a cultural attitude towards it being shameful to be feminine as a boy. it was probably the shame and embarrassment i felt when being dressed up against my will those couple of times as a kid that got it started... however it got going though, it's just layers and layers of mistrained sexuality, fantasy, an eternally frustrated sex-drive that never learned to go to the correct place.
i used to have a liberal attitude toward porn, i scoffed at the idea it would influence a person so much.... but knowing what i know now, in part thanks to you GC'ers, there is no course of action other than to just stop. I'm finally attractive and social enough to pull women, but how could i even seem available to a woman in a state such as this? i would do nothing but let her down. maybe i'll be always masochistic idk, but i can at-least make myself as compatible as possible for the average woman. fuck this disgusting fetish/sexuality/paraphillia/whatever it's nothing but disgraceful. i hate it. fuck these bastards that go around reddit and other places and make it seem like it's some unchangeable characteristic/unique orientation that must be "managed" incase the desires go overboard late in life and you go full transgender.. like what kind of logic is that? just because Blanchard's concessions to extreme AGP's? i bet he doesn't even really believe what he says about that... they just don't want to think there is something about themselves they should change. it is changeable and there is pretty much no reason not to change it as much as you can.
PS: i think masochism might be a vestigial sexual drive from infancy toward a female caretaker figure. it would make sense to me that something like that could morph into attraction toward submissive fantasies or being dominated by a woman. like in your brain, it associates being overwhelmed by a powerful female presence to sex somehow. and there is a large overlap between AGP's and Diaper fetishists. and now that new thing the zoomers are into the "mommy dom". most of the time when boys are crossdressed against their will, it's female family members doing it for fun. just saying... maybe it's all different ways of being the baby again.
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