“You’ve had sex, and I haven’t. You’ve had sex, and I haven’t”.
It haunts me everyday. 99% of the people who I interact with daily at my wagie job have had sex.
They have crossed one of the most important formative barriers into adulthood, and I haven’t.
They are inherently more mature and experienced as a result.
They are wiser and have a more sophisticated view of the world.
They can tell I haven’t been touched or hugged in an intimate way by how I talk.
They know special bedroom secrets that they occasionally use as an inside joke in subtle ways with other adults.
I am a child in a man’s body.
Their “virgin detector” goes off when I am nearby.
Honestly bros, I am fucked. I can’t control my high inhibition, and my anxieties are eating me alive from the inside.