Its hard to be around anyone that's successful in life as you are constantly reminded how much of a failure you are despite your best efforts to improve it. It doesn't help that all successful people tend to be really condescending and spout out false platitudes like "try harder" despite them not needing to try and "it all gets better". I try my best to avoid these people because there is nothing worse then having a bunch of assholes bragging about how great their life is to you despite most of it being given to them due to circumstances but have them disregard your problems as you not trying hard enough I just aim to cut these types of people out of my life altogether. You can say that I am just envious, but it becomes worse when you are constantly reminded by others around you what you can never have due to the cards you have been dealt with in life.