AN UPDATE to get this straighten out: https://saidit.net/s/LGBDropTheT/comments/9bnq/getting_the_record_straight_im_only_making_this/
I’ve given up. I’m done.
Within a few minutes of posting about how two women said lesbians can be okay with sleeping with men, I received several comments defending it and casting me as the bad guy in this situation. I've gotten criticisms for never being with men and how I've always known that I wasn't attracted to or comfortable with the idea of being with men. What hurts the most is that these are comments from lesbians.
This has happened to me numerous times in my personal life. I've had bisexual women, even ex-girlfriends tell me that I should have tried men before, gay men have said this to me, and now other lesbians. When straight people said this to me, I was able to just shrug them off because they could never really understand. I grew up in the midst of the gay marriage debate; for a long time, all I knew about gay people was that we're f/gs who weren't welcome in my country. I’ve had to deal with a middle school teacher of mine calling us ped/philes.
In high school, I was bullied by classmates and teachers for being openly gay. That never made me feel ashamed or like I needed to hide who I am. But, I give up; I thought I could get away from it all here, but no. It's even controversial to say that lesbians aren’t comfortable sleeping with men, that I don’t like dick, or that I've always known I'm not attracted to men. I’m not accepted by my own in my own community irl or here, what’s the point? Why even bother at this point?
My past experiences, the current mass erasure, and lesbophobia from my "own" has made me, for the first time in my life, not want to call myself a lesbian. I'm leaving the lesbian community and going back into the closet as much as I can. Even within the lesbian community, I'm a freak for not being with men. I'll just call myself gay from now on or anything else besides "lesbian."