I have basically been depressed and isolated for thirty years and have been through all the worthless moron school counselors and in patient blah blah blah none of it was good for shit, they never did a fucking thing useful for me, not once, and my drug addict single parent trash family were top busy being irresponsible cunts to recognize that they destroyed all my relationships every few years and that government school is child abuse. They also gave me drugs that gave me a seizure, and whoever did that needs their head removed on television, just like the rest of the normie trash who make life unbearable. If I wasn't so indecisive I'd have killed myself twenty years ago, and I wish I had. Every encounter with these people makes me hate them more. They tell me to breathe. I spend all day frustrated, angry, alone, never even being able to do any thing I want or spend any time around anyone I want to and they get butthurt because my text messages aren't appropriate. I'm going to say what I fucking think, explaining how I feel about things and why I can't be around people - I didn't know I had to worry about you getting triggered, bitch? They pretend to want to help but they have zero useful advice and obviously do not understand or sympathize with me, which just makes me hate them more, fucking charlatans. I am too depressed to file for social security. I tried to get a text message therapist BECAUSE I CAN'T FUCKING TALK TO PEOPLE ON YOUR SCHEDULE IF I COULD I WOULDN'T TALK TO YOU ST ALL YOU FUCKS. I am sorry if it hurts your feelings but I've been long past counting backwards and trying to mask to get normies to like me. I hope they all burn in Hell. There is NOTHING for me, my life is a dead end, and though I have BEGGED FOR OVER A DECADE to get help with employment and social work for autistic adults, to get evaluated for autism, to talk to ONE GOD DAMES PERSON WITH ANY EXPERIENCE OR QUALIFICATIONS WITH ADULT AUTISM WHATSOEVER and NO RESPONSE. I've emailed one person after another, one message board after another I get ZERO FUCKING USEFUL RESPONSES. THERE ARE NO RESOURCES IN MY STATE NOBODY RESPONDS TO MY EMAILS. NO DOCTOR OR COUNSELOR CAN REFER ME TO ANYONE. I AM FUCKED AND MY LIFE IS AN ENDLESS HELL AND ALL THE PEOPLE WHO PRETEND TO CARE IGNORE ME AND GET BUTTHURT WHEN I EXPLAIN THE REALITY OF HOW MUCH I WISH EVERYONE WAS DEAD. THIS ISN'T S FUCKING GAME FOR ATTENTION, I WANT TO BLOW MY FUCKING BRAINS OUT IN YOUR FUCKING FACE JUST TO SPITE YOU CUNTS. MY SHITTY PARENTS AND SHITTY SCHOOL AND SHITTY USELESS GOVERNMENT SERVICES HAVE DESTROYED MY LIFE AND I WISH I COULD GIVE THEM ALL A SLOW CANCER. PROBABLY JUST GET DELETED AS PER USUAL BECAUSE YOU FUCKING PEOPLE CAN'T STAND IT WHEN SOMEONE DOESN'T FEEL THE WAY YOU THINK IS ALLOWED. CUNT CITY ON CUNT PLANET, THAT'S WHERE ALL COUNSELORS MUST BE FROM.