Obviously, I never had many "friends" - if I could call anyone a friend. I was being used for years for my knowledge/ humour / creativity - it was long till I realized I was jester. I didn't realize it two years ago, but much earlier, like 6 or 7, but it was my only possibility to stick around anyone and to even attempt socializing.
It always was tiring as hell because people wanted to leech out of things and then completely leave me. Two years ago I realized it will never change and I moved on from attempting and even more - I resigned from the "offers" I was given.
For some time people were calling me to go into usual spots where I was supposed to be a jester and I was saying "I won't go" without specifying why. Two denials and for most people I became completely inevitable, except overhearing that "I became weird because I don't want to hang out anymore". They basically reaffirmed what I was supposed to do there, because they were saying "who will play music, who will do X, who will do Y". I was being a resource they didn't care about.
But.
People who knew me obviously didn't care, because... they knew me. But new people, as in my job, university don't know me at all and they assume pretty fast I am weird. I don't talk to people when it's not necessary, I do my own stuff and don't bother anyone. They see me as an easy prey to leech of, however we are adults now, so they won't manage to this by bullying, so they are pretending to be nice. But I don't need that. I refuse to socialize with them in any spots. I refuse to collaborate, I refuse to offer help. It's considered as weird, because I am stereotype of weird quiet guy, so they think it will be easy to use me.
It's funny, because in the first situation which I described (cutting off old people) they let you know they don't need you, because you were already used. In second situation, they are surprised and concerned because you were supposed to be used and you weren't.
And I think that's the only part of our lifes that as incels we can control - we can control who do we trust. And sadly - we shouldn't trust anyone. Every single word you say will be used against you, one way or another. Every single action, every single mistake, every single information about you will most likely ruin you the moment others decide to use it. Even the most boring, stupid or completely irrelevant shit will be used against you at some point and you know it as well as I do.
That's the fact why I completely reduced informations given to anyone. I like to describe and speak in details, but I was born in wrong body to do so.
Asked about hobby - I respond I play games. Asked about music? I listen to all of music. About movies? Sure, I like movies. About anything opinion related? I don't care. Asked about weekend plans? I will sleep.
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