Despite the fact that a lot of us are raised to believe in an abstract idea of "justice" I'm pretty sure people like us who get exposed to the conspiracies realize the true nature of the people who run things and the merciless aspect of the social and bureaucratic organizations controlling things. I get a feeling of satisfaction out of knowing that the people in power can indeed be beaten and that I've managed to make a lot of people see the truth about the world already, but despite this when I look about all the people who aren't awake and all lies that are present not just as information but also the alien like nature of political structures, It is absolutely maddening just thinking about how much of what people accept as truth and justice is not the way they think it is.
I'm not sure if It's the same for you guys, but when I do research and I find out more about the secrets about how things truly run I get a huge feeling of satisfaction. Kind of like that novel of Sartre in which the main character starts losing his feelings of existential nausea once he hears the music, when I'm alone I just start thinking about solutions about many of the problems Venezuelans and even the rest of the world face and I feel very happy because I know can make a difference.
I can't crack anymore, I'm doing this so I won't crack.