So, recently I've started seeing this girl. I've known her for 2+ years, but we've only been dating for the last 4 months after texting a lot and then deciding to get together during quarantine. Regulations have relaxed since then. I've seen a lot of her in the last few weeks - we're together pretty much every day. At each others houses, going to the park together etc.

I really like her. She laughs at all my jokes, even the bad ones. She shares my dry sense of humour. She's from a different country originally, like me, and recounts a lot of stories about the culture and what it was like, which I find really interesting and we bond over. She's a lovely and kind person and absolutely gorgeous. In short, I really like being around her.

It all seemed perfect until this recent issue.

As of late, during our make out sessions she's been wanting to take things further. I feel really uncomfortable with this and don't know how to fix it. While I really do enjoy making out, we're pretty young (16 & 17) and I have some sexual trauma in the past that I want to be upfront about before I ever get intimate with anyone.

The problem is I don't feel ready to talk about it yet at this point in our relationship and I'm not sure how she'd react. I don't want her to view me differently or treat me differently and I can't expect her to be fully understanding at our age. Also, I don't want to gross her out with it, it grosses me out and I don't see why she would see it any differently. She's told me before that she'd never date a bi girl who's ever been with a dude because she has a really vivid imagination and gets intrusive thoughts as a result of her OCD so it'd weird her out, and that's really stuck with me, because although I'm a lesbian the trauma does concern a man.

I've explored what happened to me in therapy but I've never told anyone apart from the therapist and I'm really scared of revealing it to her. However I don't want to keep rejecting her advances without an explanation. Although to clarify she stops immediately whenever I don't want to go further and is the epitome of respectful of boundaries, I still feel like I need to give her an explanation and be honest, as she's confided a lot in me.

I feel like because of our ages a lot of you will tell me that I don't have to worry about this yet and that there's plenty of time for sex in the future, but it's not the sex itself, but more the ability to make myself vulnerable. And I mean, lots of people our age do have sex and at least we can't get each other pregnant. I guess I'm just looking for advice on how to start a conversation and what you think I should do.

Thanks, sorry for the long post.