Okay, so bear with me, this is just some theory I thought of when my phone died while I was still on the train for another two hours.
In the past I have thought that I was asexual, and I learned this is not uncommon for lesbians to experience at some point in their lives. Why I used to think that? Well, I thought I never experienced sexual attraction. I would think of the way sexual attraction is portrayed in books, series and movies and I couldn't relate to that.
Sexual attraction is described as this all overpowering thing that makes you (want to) lose control. Mindlessly lusting after someone. Just getting turned on by looking at them. Thing is, I've had sex and I enjoyed it. So I was pretty sure I wasn't really asexual, but that I just lacked the ability to feel sexual attraction. Whereas romantic attraction is something I knew I was more than capable of experiencing.
But as I was sitting there on the train, I realised that what I based my idea of sexual attraction on, was what straight men experience for women. I am, obviously, not a straight man. We get told that men can't "control themselves", I've heard men talk about women they thought were hot in such an objectifying way. And suddenly it clicked. There was never any examples of lesbians describing what sexual attraction felt like to them - at least, I've never spoken to another lesbian about it, or heard about it.
By growing up comparing my experiences to straight men, I started thinking there was something wrong with me for feeling differently about women. Us lesbians haven't been raised the same way as men so as women we view other women differently and thus experience our attraction differently as well.
For me sexual attraction is a much less overwhelming thing, as I am simply not capable of viewing another woman as just a sexual object. All the attraction I feel is mixed with the respect I have with her as a human being, feelings of love - friendship.
I can't be the only one right? Either way, I hope this all made a bit of sense and can be eye opening to others who felt the same way while they grew up.
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