I know this is down to past negative experiences but I still struggle with being out to straight women - even in casual situations where their opinion of me doesn't really matter that much. I realised how bad this was at a couple of recent small get-togethers where I was with a group of straight women.
At the first one, everyone was chatting about a particular holiday destination which I am going to for a lesbian event (hopefully - if the pandemic's over by next year) so I could have joined in the conversation but because of the lesbian nature of the event I was going to I just kept quiet.
Then this week I was chatting with three straight women - one of whom I do know fairly well and who knows I'm a lesbian and two others I don't really know. We were talking about a particular city and I said I had been there a couple of times for events but hadn't had much time to look around. One of them said 'oh what kind of events' and I had a choice of telling them a) about a lesbian event which was more recent or b) about going to see Morrissey about 20 years ago (who has since then come out with loads of racist stuff and expressed his support for the far right). In front of these two women - one black and one Asian - who didn't know me very well, I chose to tell them about seeing Morrissey and have them suspect I was a far-right sympathiser rather than have them know I am a lesbian.
Is anyone else this crap? How do I get over it and not care as much about other people's opinions? I'm not sure how much it is that I don't want them to have a worse opinion of me and how much it is that I don't want to make them feel uncomfortable.
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