And now that I've found this place it's sadly come back and idk how to get rid of it.
So back in the old incel discords I was in I started getting weirdly attached to a few of them, and for the life of me I still don't know why. Like weird rape requests during meltdowns aside I used to genuinely think of having sex with one of them so I'd get over with losing my virginity already, or maybe learn to like men properly. Didn't matter how they looked cuz my imagination couldn't picture them anyway, it was all about how it felt; not good but every woman deals with bad sex so it's fine. Either way it was strictly for his pleasure - I'd think of it knowing I was gonna feel bad afterwards, given my attitude toward sex at the time, but they were really hammering the whole 'women's pleasure doesn't matter' thing and I took that personally.
Anyway nearly all the dudes in that server blocked me after I confessed to that (one of which I'd gone more crazy for including sending videos), including the mod/owner/idk one of those big roles.
Edit: goddamnit it happened again
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