As most of you probably do, I have social media accounts. And I do post art online, most of the time fanarts. I love to draw couples being cute (gay/lesbian/straight idc), that's my jam. I enjoy this activity a lot, well I enjoyed it more a few years ago. But when I tell you all artists are about this ideology, I mean fucking all of them. Women, in particular, which are all over tumblr, are absolutely fond of this ideology. Okay.
So, my problem here is that, it kills my fun, it kills MY SOUL, and I can't make friends whitout feeling like shit. Pronouns in bio. Sharing trans stuff. A lot, a fucking whole lot of them are trans too. They/them. She/They. He/They (probably females, most of them tho). And I feel so isolated. I feel like everything is a lie. Sometimes it's really too much. And my only solution would be to delete my social medias, and stop sharing art. Because when you draw LGB stuff (they don't even know that I won't even touch TQ+ with a stick), well guess who's the crowd that is going to welcome you ? LGBTQZJLMAJG+. All of the neo pronouns, all of the "they/them" all of the extreme leftists, all of the "i chopped my boobs off please applause now".
It feels like I'm doing it for them. I create art, that those people enjoy and, I feel so empty that they're everywhere around me. It hurt so bad. Because they're the whole opposite of what I believe in. And the only way I have to express this would be to go "full on terf" but I'll have to accept to lose mutual artist friends, that I have a great time with, talking or sharing art with. Even if they're fucking lost in this stupid ideology.
Is that the right thing to do, tho ? Lose everyone who knows me as this person, to claim that I am not part of their bullshit, face harassement (I already did that once, and go annihilited by those women with mean DMs and comments. I ended up in a thread dedicaded to my "bad transphobic behavior" because I told this one chick that if she's so ashamed of her breast it maybe was because they're over sexualized and there was nothing wrong with her body :). Some of them told me they were sorry but couldn't go along with a "terf". Some kid (FTM teenager) told me that transwomen were women and that pubery blockers were reversible anyway. It was just so sad. All of it. I know it's stupid but it made me really depressed for a long time. I was devastated. But I went back on social medias after deleting all of them, changed name and fandom to be left alone. It worked. I still don't believe in this ideology tho).
I really don't know what to do to deal with this properly, because I need change. My two solutions are : that I'll have to just stop depicting LGB relationships or to go full on terf and make my shit about politic when all I want is just drawing people kissing in peace. It's exhausting.
I would love to hear you guys thougts about this.